Akhir-akhir ini anon di ask.fm tuh pada posesif deh.
Tapi kocak kadang tapi ngeselin.
Padahal baru aktif buka ask.fm lagi tapi yang nanya ada aja setiap hari. Absurd tapi gue tetep tanggepin. Jadi salah siapa tuh?
Tapi gapapa deh untung gue gabut hehe
Akhir-akhir ini lagi sering baper(*) juga.
Dikit denger lagu, langsung baper.(I'll tell you a song that makes me 'baper tingkat dewa'; track number 2 on this link https://itunes.apple.com/us/album/telisik/id883130935 )
Dikit nonton film, langsung baper.
Lagi jalan, langsung baper.
Bengong dikit, baper.
Semuanya aja baper.
Mendadak insecure juga. coba hayo insecure sama apa hayoo.
Yah namanya juga gue, ga jauh-jauh dari masalah hati. Kapan coba gue bebas terlepas dari masalah yang satu ini.
Oya, I've sent my cv and portfolio to a magazine for internship. tapi....portfolio gue dikit banget dan sangat amat standar dan beberapa design gue entah raib dan hilang di save di mana ga gue temuin, sedih deh. Sempet kepikiran juga buat gajadi ngirim, tapi gue penasaran pengen nyoba. Akhirnya udahlah nekad aja ngirim.
Eh bener, temen gue(yang ngajuin juga ke tempat yang sama) dapet email balesan buat interview dan gue engga. Kecewa sedikit sih tapi ya wajar orang portfolio gue gak banget. Tapi yaudalah ku menghibur diriku sendiri.
Pelajaran yang bisa diambil, apapun yang lo kerjain di laptop please dengan sangat, tolong simpan dan tata rapi di folder ya. Biar suatu saat lo butuh lo ga susah.
Terus sekarang gue jadi manusia hopeless karena gak pede buat ngajuin internship ke tempat lain. Gimana ya, gue kuliah di jurusan yang salah dan gue masih standar banget kemampuannya sedangkan semester depan gue harus magang. Gimana ga hopeless? Mau magang dimana? huhu
Jadi menyesal waktu itu nolak internship padahal gue udah keterima dan itu yang gue mau banget:(
Yaudah deh mending sekarang konsen supaya ga hopeless dulu. Semoga ada pertolongan, pencerahan dan keajaiban dari Allah ya. Amen.
Okay tadi itu intermezzo. Let me start.
After I decided to change back to the old me, I tried to get to know new people.
But, I thought that I should try to focus on one person after I read this quote;
'Bila engkau ingin satu, maka jangan ambil dua.
Karena satu menggenapkan, tapi dua melenyapkan'
- Filosofi Kopi
Yes, I know what it means.
I would shorten the story, I met this man. The unexpected one haha. First impression, a nice guy, makes me interested to know him more. So, I allow him to get into my life.
Day by day, we began to know each other(bcs we started as strangers).
We even had a fight, I've got to cry too haha.
But now, I think he's being much better than before(maybe its because he already know how to treat me right and so do I).
Well, I can't explain more about him. I like him, adore him or....even more than that, love.
Out of all the things needed, love barely makes the top 5, honesty, loyalty, trust, and communication all have to be there. Keep no secrets, tell no lies. I appreciate him to being honest with telling the truth(although it's bad).
I just have a fear, afraid of falling. But I've fallen, into deep. I'm sure that you will not let me down(amen!).
I just follow the path that has been set. I know the path depends on us. I always think positive on us.
I am in to you.
